That is what it has been today. I feel defeated in every way a mom can feel. For the last couple of days James hasn't been very happy. He has cried alot and been very clingy. It reminds me of a steroid week without the steroids. He has had a runny nose, a cough, and his right eye has been running. I don't know if it's allergies or if he is trying to get sick. I have taking his temperature what feels like a million times and he hasn't had anything close to a fever.
We head to clinic tomorrow so maybe they can make sense of what is going on. We continue to covet your prayers. This is a very long road and some days seem extra long. Thank you that we can use this means as a way of communicating how we feel. There are still some days it is hard for me to believe he has cancer.
I will update tomorrow after the clinic visit.